I made the appointment for my first radiation appointment today. It is the "set up"...where they will set me up and mark me...you know the "Target"! I will go January 3, 2007, YAY! I am just so happy that chemo will be over I could care less about having to lie on a hard table for 45 minutes with my arm over my head so they can but a bulls eye on my boob! Well, it is a small dot not a bulls eye but whatever.
I am just so over the side effects of the chemo or the steroids or whatever it is that is making me feel the way I do.
Let's see...there is the fatigue...utter exhaustion really. The acid reflux after everything I eat or drink...even water! Then my throat feels like it is swollen from being so irritated from the heartburn! The memory problems...actually I guess it is more cognitive issues...I mean numbers seem to run into each other and I can't think as fast as I used to. It is like being stoned all the time, but not a good stoned...for those of you who may understand what I mean...
The biggest annoyance is the tummy problems...I really don't want to go into to detail but it just sucks! If it isn't one extreme it is another...there is that enough hint for ya? :)
Also, insomnia! I mean I am soooooo friggin tired but then I am like wide awake. CRAZY!!!
But I think about it and all this crap is worth it...I mean I feel like ass because I am kicking cancer's ass! So feeling like crap for a while is worth living!
So, my hubby just asked a good question. He asked what I was doing...I told him "I'm blogging" he said What? I explained it is my diary...just anyone in the world can read it. He asked "why do other people want to read about someone else's life?"... Good question! I have no idea, but we do. Why are we so interested in other people? I mean I hate reality TV but I love going to a public place and watching and listening to other people and trying to figure out what their lives are like! I love it! I guess it is just human nature...we are a curious species! I mean if we weren't we would all still be living in some cave somewhere with nothing we have now. Nothing we have now would exist! And there would be no chemo or drugs to save us cause no one would have decided to investigate why people die or get sick! So I say, be curious, investigate things! Go on...read about other people!
OK, no idea what that was but whatever!
I am having a rather blah night, it is funny before I started this blog...yesterday...I had so much to say, so much in my head. And now I can't think! Ha!!! Weird!
So I shall sign off now!
1 comment:
When the words don't come when you are in front of your computer... better do something else :-)
If you want to take a nap and suddenly your mind starts running in overdrive thinking about this and that: then grab your computer or a piece of paper and jot things down.
Thanks for the link as well :-)
If you want to do something for me: tell all your friends to visit me (or my website..., otherwise my house gets too small, especially now that there is already an extra hospital bed).
Main thing is you take care of yourself and use all your energy for yourself and your loved ones!
Big hug,
SK
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